Sick at home

Today is another one of those days where I was forced into reflecting about my life and my future. I would've prefered to go to work and worry about other things but my body had other plans. Being sick sucks! The worst is trying to think straight while your brain seems to be running at a whooping 10Mhz -- processing... please wait... error: please resubmit your thoughts, I accidentaly lost them!

On the other hand, I think I reached some kind of inner peace. Software still obviously excites me, although I still don't know which part of it brings me down in a way that makes me want to curl up into a ball and whimper all night. I'm not gonna start anything new. Instead, I'll concentrate on learning, since that is one of the things that makes me tick.

I started reading Principles of Product Development Flow last month, a book that a few of us are reading together in our Lean Software Development group. It's also been mentioned by Eric Ries on his blog. Well, let me just say that this book is going to keep me busy for a while. It is so choke full of information that I think I'll need to go get a masters in economics, statistics and mathematics just to be able to fully grasp its concepts. So expect me to write about this as I try to go along and understand the key concepts.

Another thing I always wanted to read is Common Lisp, by chief Lisp evangelist Paul Graham. I've always been attuned to functional programming, and I even started to read the book in the past without completing it. Well now that I've got all the time in the world (after giving my kids their bath, that is...) I'm going to complete that book and its follow up, On Lisp, which is thankfully a free download. Expect me to blog about that as well on Los Techies, where I plan to write about more hands on posts.

So here I am, still in my robes, but clean, staring out the window while simultaneously cursing my body for getting sick and wondering about the possibilities that await me in the future. Of course, another idea popped into my head today. I just can't seem to stop them. What is driving me crazy is my inability to implement them. So I'll just concentrate on learning. Yeah, learning and setting myself goals.